Mistakes Happen

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Soo….. I’m 20 now! Woo hoo! I beat teen pregnancy 🙂 How exciting! To celebrate my birthday I went with my friend Abby to her brother’s football game. It was fun!! On Saturday we got up way early to go to the Iowa game! I ended up hanging out with a good high school friend. It was a way fun night!! I’ve been pretty busy with homework lately. I should be doing homework right now, but blogging comes first! 🙂

Something that has been on my mind lately:

I know that many girls have said, “I want someone to love me even for my mistakes and weaknesses”. I’ve often thought and said this. A couple days ago I tweeted “Find a heart that will love you at your worst, and arms that will hold you at your weakest #truth”. I was feeling like I have relationships and friendships, and I lose that relationship because of my weaknesses and mistakes. My sister replied with “the only person who can do all of that is Jesus…He can and will love you and hold you”. I decided that the one thing I NEED in my life is Jesus Christ. He is the only man who can be perfect and always there for me. Honestly, who wouldn’t want someone like Jesus Christ in their life?! Sometimes it is hard to figure this is true because I don’t have him physically here to “hold me”, but I know he’s here.

Sometimes I dislike myself for my mistakes, but people make mistakes. So what if I messed up? I’ll try my hardest to not mess up in that kind of situation again. Life is full of lessons. I shouldn’t dislike myself for learning those lessons. It’s a part of life! This isn’t just for me. So many people get stuck in a slump because they can’t get over their mistakes.

From now on I’m going to try my hardest to realize that mistakes happen and things happen for a reason. This is what God has in store for me. I need to trust that He has a plan for me because HE DOES!!

Everything will turn out just fine! 🙂

Do something good for someone else! 🙂

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Grace Like Rain

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I’ve had a lot on my mind lately. And this song below has been a life saver when I get upset or stressed the past few days. My brother actually sang this song with a couple other boys from my hometown church. It was amazing. I heard it on the radio a couple days ago and decided that I needed to download it on my computer. I’ve been listening to it a lot ever since I downloaded it. It means something to me and is pretty powerful to me. It’s completely true. I just thought I needed to share it. Jesus Christ– my strength in my weakness.

GRACE LIKE RAIN by Todd Agnew

“Amazing grace, how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me I once was lost but now I’m found
Was blind but now I see so clearly
 
Hallelujah, grace like rain falls down on me Hallelujah,
all my stains are washed away, washed away
 
‘Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed
 
Hallelujah, grace like rain falls down on me Hallelujah,
all my stains are washed away,washed away
 
When we’ve been there ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun
We’ve no less days to singYour praise
Than when we first begun
 
Hallelujah,grace like rain falls down on me Hallelujah,
all my stains are washed away,
washed away
Hallelujah, grace like rain falls down on me Hallelujah,
all my stains are washed away, washed away”
 
 

Do something good for someone else 🙂

Motivation

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It has been almost a month since my last blog. I believe that I am the biggest slacker in the blog world there is. I feel embarrassed! School has been great. I like my classes a lot. I’ve had a really fun first semester so far. My close friends and I are always doing something fun. My roommate and I have been extremely crafty in our spare time lately. She’s better at being crafty, but it’s fun to try for me! 🙂 Life has been really good lately. I have some good people in my life. Having good friends makes rough times much easier.

Yesterday in my Ed Psych class we had a class discussion on what motivates people. We thought of many ideas that were pretty broad. When I was sitting there daydreaming (oops) I was thinking about what really motivates me. I thought of the broad topics that the class thought of also, but then I thought about them in more detail. Some of the broad topics were recognition, pride, respect, acceptance, and love.

So everyone likes to be recognized for something they’ve done. In sports I enjoyed beingrecognized for my efforts put towards my sport I was playing at the time. Sometimes this is the only way some people are motivated. If I wasn’t recognized for something I was still able to be motivated.

Pride is something everyone should have. Some people have different levels of pride. I dislike people who are so prideful that they believe that they are better than sliced bread (yeah, I just said that).

Respect is a huge motivator for me. If I feel that I am not respected for my efforts I try to work harder and harder. Sometimes in sports or in school I would feel that my coach/teacher would see that I slacked on something or didn’t give enough effort; I feel like they lost respect for me. I try harder and harder to earn that respect back. Respect from my parents in everything I do is extremely important for me. They are my own personal motivators. Without them I would have a lot less motivation in life. I want to make them proud so I do what they would respect me for most of the time. I love feeling respected by my parents because of the effort I put into something.

Acceptance is also a great motivator for me. I know that sometimes acceptance is not a motivator either. In life I’ve had friends who don’t care about school and would rather do things that will not benefit them. I wanted to be accepted by them so I started not to care about school and things that are more important. I didn’t even realize I was trying to be accepted by them until my grades when downhill for a while. Things like this happen to everyone. It’s the realization of what is happening (changing to feel accepted) is important in life. In my future as a teacher, I know that students will do the same thing. I think it’s important to show kids that school and their future is more important than fitting into a group that isn’t going to accept you for who you are.

LOVE is great! My professor asked us what motivates us in our relationships (family or friends). Everyone in my group immediately said love. Everyone wants to be loved and that’s what motivates us to have secure relationships. I know that having friends is important. Picking the right friends are even more important. A friend who loves you no matter what is a true friend. I know that my parents and siblings will be my best friends forever because they love me no matter what the circumstances. Yes, families have their fights and disagreements, but they’ll always love you. That’s what motivates me to have a great relationship with my family. Being loved is the number one aspect of life that everyone wants.

Everyone has a goal in life whether they are doing something to go towards that goal or not. My goal is to become an elementary teacher and eventually guidance counselor. This goal motivates me. I want to change lives for the better, and I believe being a teacher can be a great way to do so.

Motivation is often lost–for me at least!! Everyone goes through days/weeks that they just cannot get motivated to do well in school and work. Sometimes motivation can be hard to come by. Trying to motivate yourself is sometimes hard; being able to motivate yourself when things are going wrong makes you very strong.

What motivates YOU?

Do something good for someone else! 🙂

Be You

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I’m done with homework tonight, so I thought I would blog before I went to bed. To catch you up on my life, last week as a busy week again. Thursday night my roommate and I went to Country Night! It was a fun experience. I somewhat learned how to line dance…….not really. I am horrible! I guess I’ll have to practice more. I’ll make my roommate practice with me in our dorm room. I’m sure she’d like that! Ha. This past weekend my roommate and I went to Ames and stayed with one of her friends from high school. We had a pretty fun time! I met some cool people and was able to see people I haven’t seen in a while. Saturday morning I woke up being told I have a flat tire! Thank goodness there was a boy there to help me put the spare on! What a great morning, eh?! The rain definitely ruined tailgating on Saturday though. Karley (my roommate) and I got dropped off to meet up with friends to tailgate, but we ended up just walking around the stadium in the rain for an hour or so. We did meet up with a friend, but we didn’t stay with them long because we decided we would rather go sleep back at her friend’s apartment. It took us an HOUR to walk back to her friend’s place. It was the longest and wettest walk EVER! We definitely got a good nap in after that walk though!! 🙂

Sunday I came back to Cedar Falls even though I was REALLY wanting to go see my family that day! I got a lot of homework done that night. I definitely felt very productive! Yesterday I worked the whole afternoon and then came back to my dorm room to do more homework and laundry! Today was a decent day even though I was pretty tired from the crazy weekend.

Tonight my roommate was going through a notebook that has a bunch of quotes in it. I was reading through them and noticed this one:

“The most important thing in life is to find yourself.

Know who you are at all times, and stand by that for the rest of your life.”

 

I feel like this stage in my life I am trying to figure out “who I am”. Who am I? I think most people think about this many times throughout their life. Everyone goes through of stage of trying to figure out whom he or she is and what he or she wants to do in their life.

This past summer I struggled with this question, and still do struggle with it. A very helpful person told me once that they think I know who I am, but I’m not willing to accept myself so I am searching for ways to be someone that I am not. I’ve never thought that this was my problem until they pointed this out to me. So the end of this summer I really focused on trying to accept myself. Sometimes I slip and try to be someone else, so I have to remind myself who I am! I still question “who I am”, but it takes time to find yourself sometimes.

Once I know who I am (which I believe I know) I need to stand by it. I need to know my limits. I need to stand up for what I believe in. I need to accept what others feel about me. I need to accept ME! 🙂

When it comes down to a decision you need to make in your life, the only person that can make the decision for you is YOU. You need to know who you are and where you come from in order to make your decision considering your morals. Listen to your inward voice and follow that! 🙂

 

Do something good for someone else 🙂

Temptation

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So… my life is completely busy. I feel like I’ve had barely any time to relax, but my busy schedule should be slowing down a little since I don’t work as much this week and the next week. I do love working at Younkers, but my schedule has been wearing me out! Classes started last week and they were great. I think I’m going to like my classes. I will definitely have a lot of projects to do this semester, but I guess that is just what happens when you’re an Elementary Education major! Projects, Projects, Projects!

Lately, I’ve been wondering and thinking about temptation. TEMPTATION is a desire to do something, especially something wrong or unwise. Everyone has been tempted before. We are tempted to do something wrong almost everyday; we just don’t realize it at times. The question I have right now is this: How do we overcome temptation? I honestly think that this question is hard to answer. I’ve read many articles in the past couple days trying to find some kind of advice for my friends and I about being tempted.

Most of my thoughts take me back to books I’ve read and youth group in high school. A lot of articles I read were things I already knew, but I was able to think deeper into what they meant. One article says, “We need to renew our thinking as we are told in Romans 12:1-2 (Therefore, I urge you, brothers in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God- this is your spiritual act of worship). We need to no longer think as the world thinks, or walk in the same way that the world walks. Proverbs 4:14-15 tells us, ‘Do not enter the path of the wicked, and do not proceed in the way of evil men. Avoid it, do not pass by; Turn away from it and pass on.’” The verse from Proverbs made me almost feel more confident about being able to turn away from temptation.

I also found another verse that helped me out with overcoming temptation. It’s from Matthew 5:29. It reads, “If your right eye makes you stumble, tear it out and throw if from you; for it is better for you to lose one of the parts of your body, than for your whole body to be thrown into hell.” I was honestly scared when I read that!! Haha! It is pretty darn severe! I don’t believe I’m going to hell if I sin because I was forgiven for those sins, but still! What a scary verse for temptation!! I feel like it’s important that we all try to avoid the path of the world that leads us into temptation because we are weak people. It’s extremely hard! I know that I will be tempted, but I’m hoping I don’t give into that temptation. I make mistakes, but that’s how we learn things in life.

I just felt like talking about temptation in this blog because I’m up at college and I feel like college is full of temptations!! This blog is pretty darn deep in some parts! Everyone knows most of what I said, but I thought I’d blog about it anyway! 🙂

Do something good for someone else! 🙂

Beginnings

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Shame on me!!! I’ve been so busy that I haven’t cared to write a blog in about a week! I’ll catch you up on what I’ve been up to this past week!

Well, I moved into the dorms last Tuesday! It was great being able to move in with not many people there because we could take our time and get everything situated without any extra distractions!  I had some good help from my mom, dad, and brother. They were great! I’ve had to work a lot this past week, so I’ve been exhausted! I also met my RA and she is so great! I already went to her for advice and she is very understanding and way laid back. I’m excited to get to know her more! 🙂

Thursday my roommate moved in!! I was so happy that I wasn’t alone anymore! We slowly got everything situated in our room. It looks great now! It’s still not finished with decorations, but we’ve been looking everywhere for some sweet posters. We’ve been to Walmart and Target like 293847293472 times in the past week! We have spent a lot of money between the two of us on sooo many things! Karley and I have had a lot of fun so far being here! We’ve met a couple people and hung out with old friends from last year. Last night we went down the hall and introduced ourselves to some girls! They seem nice and I’m excited to get to know them. It’s been a great start. This weekend was full of FUN, work, and sickness. I didn’t feel too well this weekend, but I feel great now so that’s all that matters! I really think I’m going to enjoy this school year!

Karley and Jessie 🙂

Part of our room! (Yes mom, I know my bed is not made)

I had my first day of school this year! 🙂 I only have one class on Mondays, so it wasn’t too tough today! My class today was Ed Tech and Design. I believe it’s going to be a lot of work, but it’ll be extremely beneficial for me when I get to the teaching world. The professors already are very inspiring for my teaching career. I can’t wait to be a teacher and be able to change a heart and help children grow!

Speaking of helping children grow, I called to be a Big Sister for the Big Brother Big Sister program. They said that they have a waiting list but I’ll be getting applications in the mail. I REALLY hope I get a Little Sister soon! I’ve been wanting to be a Big Sister for a while now. I think helping others actually helps myself. I will definitely grow as a person through this program. I seriously can’t wait to finally be able to have an impact on a child’s life!! It actually gives me the goose bumps when I think about it! 🙂

I work a lot of hours the next two weeks at Younkers, so I’m going to be an extremely busy girl! Being busy has its positives, but it definitely has its negatives! My body doesn’t like when I’m busy. Haha! Hopefully I won’t be so slow on getting my blogs up from now on! I hope everyone has had a great week!!

Do something good for someone else! 🙂

If Heaven Wasn’t So Far Away

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I have not been keeping up with my blog at all! I need to get with it!! Well, this weekend was a pretty good one! I worked Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. That was kind of a bummer! Friday night after work I hung out with Miss Ariel! 🙂 She’s always fun so that was a good night. Saturday night Abby, Ali, and I got together!! Love those girls! Even though I had fun with my friends, it ended up being NOT so great since my car decided to take a poop! It was the worst timing ever since I needed to go home Sunday night!!! Thanks to my awesome cousins I was able to figure it out and make it home! I’m so lucky to have some super nice cousins!!! They take good care of me! 🙂

Today I packed up the van and my loner car so I can officially move into the dorms tomorrow! I’m way pumped to finally settle down and get organized! I am so super excited to see all my friends from last year!!! It’s going to be one heck of a year! 🙂

Last Tuesday was the anniversary of my grandma’s death. I’ve wanted to blog about it last week, but I’ve been pretty busy with work and so on. My grandma, June, was a magnificent woman. I’ve never known someone so beautiful, smart, and kind. She loved us grandchildren. It was really hard when she passed away. I really looked up to her.

When I was in junior high, I remember looking through her scrapbooks from high school. She was a really good basketball player. I absolutely love basketball so I was completely interested. After reading all of her articles, I wanted to be JUST like her! I really do hope I grow up and live my life like she did! She did so much for others! She had people who didn’t have loved ones come over for holiday dinners; that is so special!  She was so awesome! She is also a strong woman! When my grandpa passed away she acted to strong even though I know she was hurting badly inside! When my aunt died last year she also stayed very strong. I wish I could do that! I was so lucky to have her in my life. I wish she was still here! Can’t wait to see her again someday! 🙂 The song, “If Heaven Wasn’t So Far Away” by Justine Moore is exactly how I feel when I think about my grandparents. Always appreciate your grandparents because they are so special. I wish all of mine were still here, but I’ll see them again!

Tomorrow I’ll be moving into the dorms, and I’m so pumped! My week is going to be way busy!! Tuesday: Move in!! Wednesday: work and THE BAND PERRY CONCERT!!! Thursday: work a lot!!  Then a FUN weekend!!! It shall be a great week! 🙂

Hope you all have a great week as well!

Do something good for someone else! 🙂